Friday, 26 July 2013

Mommy Fears

I have the pregnancy companion App on my iPhone. Every day I open it up to see how many weeks and days I am along, and more importantly, how many days are left on this wonderful journey.

Yesterday it dropped below 90 days. I am not sure why that seems so monumental. Maybe because we seem to have come from 9 months to 90 days so quickly. Maybe because as more and more people notice I am pregnant they feel compelled to share their horrific birth stories with me (3 this week in case you were curious).

I am sure my fears aren't uncommon but they are becoming more and more obtrusive every day. I worry about his health. I worry about my abilities as a mother. I worry about finding balance as new parents. I would be lying if I said I wasn't worried about my postpartum body. Something that has led me to conduct extensive research on belly bandits and postpartum body shapers.  Is that normal? Or just horribly vain.

I fear that I haven't done enough during pregnancy. Like what will happen if I missed too many prenatal vitamins. Should I be taking fish oils? The list goes on and on.

I am sure this is common. It is right? The only thing I can think of is those taper weeks leading up to a marathon when you feel like you haven't trained enough, haven't eaten well, will hit the wall.  While not the same, there are commonalities in this preparation that make me feel somewhat calm.  I joke with my friends that I know I can run for at least 4 hours so I should be good until then. Sadly Jay's friend's wife told me she thought the same thing and it did not compare AT ALL.

I guess I am just sharing this in the hopes that it makes someone else feel a little more normal about being terrified.

Terrified yet so incredibly excited at the same time.

I think it is an ok place to be.

Monday, 22 July 2013

Home Stretch!

Today marks the first day of the third trimester! It seems like it has taken FOREVER to arrive.  I now have 9 weeks of work left (10 - 1 week of holidays) and I am starting to freak out.

This Saturday I ran 5k and it felt painful. Not a bad pain, just a discomfort. I am now debating either taking a hiatus from running or buying a belly support. I still love the feeling I get from running but the round ligament pain is detracting from that.

I am still going to prenatal yoga once a week and try to get in a Tracy Anderson workout once a week too.  I also walk from work to the edge of downtown every day so that they bus is less congested. That = 2.5 km a day 5 days a week. Not too shabby.

Recent changes:

  • It seems that my belly is growing every day! I am religious with belly oil despite reading that stretch marks really  come down to genetics in the end.

  • My back hurts. I think it is the way he is positioned (right along my spine!)

  • My appetite has decreased.

  • I still have restless leg syndrome. Compression socks help when I sleep.

Overall things are going pretty great! I am so happy that he is healthy and growing. I am nervously reading blogs about running postpartum and trying to figure it all out.  I guess it will be one of those "wait and see" things.

I did book a flight to AZ to spend 21 days with my parents in January.  At least the cold weather won't be an excuse that keeps me from getting outside.

There are a lot of things we still need to get:

  • A bassinet of some sort

  • A running stroller (still a maybe)

  • A dresser for the nursery

  • A change pad and all diaper necessities.

  • A mobile for the nursery.

That's all for now.  Here's hoping that these last 12 weeks or so go smoothly.