Friday, 5 December 2014

Thirteen Months!

I'm sorry I missed 12 months! What kind of mommy does that? I will make it up to you in scrap book pages I promise.

Here is a recap of all things new and wonderful:

  • You are in a new daycare and loving it! We even went to your first Christmas pageant this week and were so proud of your tambourine shaking.
  • You and Grandma spent two weeks getting to know each other and I think she fed you a lot of treats. It has been a while since a lb/month weight change lol!
  • You can throw a ball and even try to kick them now.
  • You are liking reading more. Daddy has a strict bedtime reading regimen with you (mommy is more about the snuggles)
  • You started walking at 12 months and two weeks. You are very good at it now and can spin to change direction. You were showing me today.
  • Favourite foods are berries, yogurt, waffles, and pesto (but only sun dried tomato)
  • You love to dance.
  • You still have 6 teeth but I think a top molar is coming in.
  • You are in your new carseat!
  • You can sign more and all done.
  • You call Mommy!! and Dada (and a lot of other things I am not great at deciphering)
  • You are still pretty bald. Don't worry, mama was too.
  • You like to fall off of things (pool ledges, first steps, the couch)
  • You like to honk peoples noses.
There are so many more and you are changing every day (just like the size small theme song).

Love you much,



Wow. It has been ages since I have posted. We have been busy, very busy actually, with my return to work, some unexpected childcare problems, and a visit from my mom (related to the childcare issue).   W has changed so much in the past month it is incredible. Walking, saying words, playing his own games. I feel like I have so much to share from everything I have learned these past couple of months that I don't even know where to start!

I haven't been training for any races, but I haven't' completely stopped running. I commute home (although I was on crutches three weeks ago). I have thought about running longer runs on weekends, but I don't want to miss even an hour of the very little time I have with W.  And running after bedtime (7:15) means it is dark and cold and I have never been much of a lone runner. This sounds like a lot of excuses right? I don't really know what to say except my heart isn't in it right now. After months of physio, injuries and strange new pain, and realizing I ran too soon for my body, it feels good to take a break. My plan once we have a routine down, is to just continue with the 6k run home most days a week and see if the training bug bites me.

I must say, I have a new appreciation for working moms. I changed my hours to 7:30-4:00 so I leave every morning at 7:00 (sometimes W isn't even up yet). At 4:00 I run as fast as I can to daycare so we have more time together. By the time we have snowsuits, hats and mittens on and walk home it is close to 5:00. We eat peanut butter, snuggle, play timber, dance, eat dinner, splish splash in the bath, read, snuggle some more and already it is bedtime.

The transition to 2.5 hrs a day with your baby is hard. Harder than I expected. So hard that I spend a good portion of my free time dreaming of ways I could work less and be with him more. I keep thinking to myself, this is just change. It will be hard for a while but then it will be the new normal. It's funny how just when you get the hang of parenting (or think you do) you get thrown a new curveball.

In sum, this is where I am right now. This hazy place of figuring out who I am as a mom, a wife, a runner, a colleague, a sister, a daughter and friend.